Excerpts from my sept. 25 post last year…
“Real love is not pretty, not nice, not romantic, not peaceful. It is enough perhaps to observe that the ultimate display of love, its defining moment, involved nails, thorns, blood, mockery, pain, and death. That’s why love is the key to the commandments, of holiness and godliness. It is everything we don’t want to be or do. It’s giving up everything we ever wanted for something better. This is the kind of love that matters; the only kind that does.”
Wasn’t actually looking for that browsing back through my older posts, but it sure hit me like a hammer. That feeling from yesterday is still here, and that’s how I know it was God. Cause today the circumstances are totally changed and it’s still here. You can still find that secret behind my eyes, though now behind tears too. Amazing how quickly the clouds gather. But that secret drives me through. The glimpse of light was enough, nay more than enough. You’re right Steeg. Really it’s not so secret, though it is the most profound mystery in the universe. It is everything that matters in my life, and it’s this simple:
Jesus loves me, this I know
For the Bible tells me so
Little ones to him belong
They are weak, but He is strong.
*sigh* Yes, I blew church and slept ’til 10:30 today, woke up to sunny skies and about 80 degrees. The sleep, for once, was deep and dreamless – and totally refreshing. This has just been an amazing week in about every way possible. And here at the end of it I’m just very very happy. Uh-huh. I know I’ll hear it from someone: “don’t rely on your feelings. Happiness is not the same as joy because it’s based on circumstance, blah blah blah.” Yeah it’s pretty much just feeling this time. But I want to revel in that, just today. Yeah work is going well, and I finished two big orders this week… but that’s not all. Yeah I shaved my head again for the summer and am finally getting back in shape (and tan)… but that’s not all. Yeah things have been good with the family and friends and I got to talk to several people I haven’t talked to in a while… but that’s not all. Yes, God gave an unexpected blessing to my life this week, that I can’t help but smile when I think about… but that’s not all either.
See I’d love to say what the rest is………. but I can’t. It’s a secret, a mystery. I have to close my mouth and just dare you to find it behind the smile in my eyes. A joy so delicate that even speaking it would seem to bruise it. A day of life, a day to live as if I was Adam in the garden – walking with God in the cool of the day.
Peace to all of you.
“…and your praise goes on”
I HAVE ARRIVED!!! Yes, Ladies and Gents, I have defeated the Halo 2 campaign on Legendary. I earned the right to the coveted 30 second storyline clip. ENVY ME!!!!!
P.S. I confess. I am developing an obsession with Cortana. I’m going to upload my brain into a computer so I can marry her. I mean she’s the perfect girl. Beautiful, smart, witty, and deactivates at the push of a button.